Dear Evan Hansen

I saw Dear Evan Hansen Sunday and it was AMAZING!!

This musical perfectly represented how I feel at some points and I have at some point related to each one of the characters.  I saw it with the original cast except that Evan was played by Colton Ryan instead of Ben Platt and he was great.  We stayed after to stagedoor and I got signatures from Colton Ryan, Kristolyn Lloyd, and Micheal Park.  (Extreme Fangirling Coming Up)  When Colton was signing my playbill he messed up the signature and goes “Its ok its very unique” and I freaked out and started crying.  I was really sad that Mike Faist, Will Roland, and Laura Dreyfuss and everyone else didn’t come out.  I was shaking with excitement all day and now that its over i’ve just been so sad that i’m not there anymore.

Anyway about the actual play:

The basic plot (without spoilers) is:

Conner was a pretty bad person and bullied Evan and everyone else and school. Evan has social anxiety and has no friends.  Connor signs Evans cast but later finds a letter that Evan had written to himself and sees that Zoe, his sister, was mentioned.  Connor takes the letter and later that day he kills himself.  His parents find the letter and assume that Connor wrote it to Evan and think they were friends.  Evan doesn’t want to tell them the truth about Connor so he goes with the lie.  He ends up creating a whole friendship between them and starts a fundraiser in Connors name.  He and Zoe end up dating and Evan starts to become part of the Murphy family and leaves his mom alone.  He ends up coming clean at the end after Connor’s “suicide note” was published.


This show has so many important messages in it, some that are very obvious and some are only visible if you have been through these experiences.  It is so great at getting the point across




Evan broke his arm falling out of a tree but near the end he talks to “Connor” and they start screaming at each other and it ends with “Connor” saying “did you fall or did you let go?” and it turns out that he tried to kill himself.

Evan was in denial and kept telling himself that it was an accident and didn’t even realize he was lying.  This is one of the things that are impossible to understand unless you have gone through it.   I completely forgot about my own suicide attempt for about 5 months and when it came back I was destroyed from the memory.  They also show how hard it was for Evan to tell his mom and he never says it out loud; only saying “I’m sorry”  I have told two of my friends but only through letters and I cannot say it out loud and probably will not for a very long time if ever.

IF YOU EVER EVER FEEL ANYTHING LIKE THIS PLEASE REACH OUT TO SOMEONE.  It could be a friend, a teacher, a family member, a suicide hotline (1-800-273-8255), or even me.  You can email me at or dm me on instagram @pegasusgirlblog.  I love you all

-Pegasus Girl ❤