What Songs Can Teach Us

Yesterday was the day of silence and while I could not participate in real life as I am horrifically sick so I participated online and I wanted to have a more in depth breaking the silence than I can put in an instagram caption (follow @the.gays.agenda) so…Enjoy!

 

I’d Rather Be Me

We go quiet

Today,

Everyday.

Because we are scared to be ourselves

But today we speak out

In silence

So

“Raise your right…

Finger and solemnly swear,

Whatever they say about me,

I DON’T CARE”

Today

We show them

That “sometimes quiet is violent”

With “no sound to hide behind”

Everything is emptier

Yet now maybe they can see

Today

We convince ourselves

That ourselves are right, and true

We say

“I’d rather be me than be with you”

And no more telling

Us that we “could stand right here

Or dissapear and nobody’d even notice at all”

We matter

And will be heard

Deafeningly

Through The Silence

once we agree that

“I’d rather be me than be

with

you”

So listen closely

And Hear Our Screams

of

Silence

I used quotes from three songs that I feel really capture some of the main parts of me as a human.  I used “I’d Rather Be Me” sung by Barrett Wilbert Weed in Mean Girls Broadway (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ou90LBaWj-4) “Car Radio” by Twenty One Pilots (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=92XVwY54h5k) and “Micheal In The Bathroom” sung by George Salazar from Be More Chill (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WaMRF8ucGJo)

Anyway hope you liked it

-Pegasus Girl ❤

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New Year

Hi people of the internet,

So its New Years Eve (right now but by the time I post it could be June who knows) and I’m going to do one of those reflections.

Don’t Tell Me I Can’t Cause Then I Will

Last year I really liked the whisper app where you can anonymously share whatever you want to either the whole app or certain communities and on New Years Eve I posted “Here’s to 2017 being a better year for everyone.  No matter h[o]w  2016 was for you [,] make this year even better.” There was a character limit so the more detailed version would be: No matter what kind of year you just had weather it was your best, your worst, or just another year now is a great time to make it better.  The response I got said “Every post ever about the previous year” and I thought about that a lot.  I think the difference is that I meant it and I made 2017 personally my best year.  It is NOT going to magically be a great year YOU need to change something.  And I did.  2017 personally (don’t tell me about the shit that happened in the world I know and that sucked but my personal life only) was one of my best years and heres why:

-I came out as bi and then pan to all of my friends

-I came out as LGBTQ+ to my school

-I got a few therapy sessions for my anxiety

-I accepted my (many) mental health issues

-I became (slightly) less depressed

-I did not attempt suicide

-I made a bunch of new friends

-My parents know and (kinda) help with my anxiety

-I got into broadway

Of course there were many bad parts of the year as well

-I got into broadway

-I had to write to my senators more then once

-I developed anorexia (?)

-My anxiety got worse

 

ANYWAY

sorry its so late ive had A WEEK but anyway I am going to try to post more often this year.

-Pegasus Girl ❤

Happy Holidays

Hello beautiful humans,

Im gonna make a (slightly) less depressing post then usual as in its gonna start depressing but then get happier.

To anybody who could not tell already i’m gay? pan? ace? all of them? i don’t really know? Anyway i’m completely in the closet at home so I don’t have to worry about this but some people come home for the holidays and have to deal with homophobic family.  If you have that problem, first of all you are amazing and sooooo brave just for being out to them and second, stay strong you can do it.  Remember who you are and don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.  Try to find at least one place/person you can escape to.

On a happier note here are some fun things to do for the holidays

-snowtube

-decorate

-get gifts

-do gift exchanges

-be with friends/families

-not die of stress from midterms(lol jk that’s impossible)

-respond to this cause I’m lonely and want entertainment

Back to School

First of all; I DON’T WANNA GO TO SCHOOL

But anyway here’s why:

I miss my friends

and learning

but not the drama

and stress

and no free time

and constant fear

and no sleep

or calm

 

Sorry it’s short but here’s some other stuff:

1st Sorry it has been a while I was at the beach

2nd School starts in like 3 days and I’m still not done with summer work

3rd I have a tumblr (pegasusgirlblog) pinterest (closetedqueerblog) instagram (@pegasusgirlblog) and a twitter (@pegasusgirl2003) so follow me there!

 

Orlando: One Year Later

One year ago today

There was an attack

On the lives of many

And the hearts of more

One year ago today

I did not cry

Not for lack of caring

But for ignorance

One year ago today

There was an attack

On the queer community

And the latinx community

One year ago today

I did not cry

Not for lack of care

But for lack of reality

Today I look back

On the attack

To see the terrible truth

Of this day in history

Today I look back

And cry

For those lost

But also for myself

Six months ago

I decided to listen to Hamilton

And to watch the Tony’s to hear

Love is love

Six months ago

I watch every video i can find

Not only to learn

But to feel

One year ago today

There was an attack

On the lives of many

And the hearts of all

-Pegasus Girl ❤

 

Love is love is love is love is love is love is love is love

cannot  be killed or swept aside…

now fill the world with music

love

and pride

-Lin-Manuel Miranda

Not a Choice

How do you know?

Do you know?

Are you normal?

Do you understand?

Why did you choose that?

Why would you want to be like that?

Do you really know?

Why? Can’t you change?

Even if it’s hard?

Do you care?

Should I care?

Are you sure?

And in response to

You and your

Flat out ignorance

I

Say

To you

I know myself

Do you know me?

I am not the norm

Do you know my difference?

I do not choose

I do not want to be the minority

Did you choose to be the majority?

I know who I am

Do I want to change?

No, I could not

Even if I wanted to

I love me

And you need to

know

It is not a choice

-Pegasus Girl ❤